Rewriting Hierarchy

One of the most experientially impactful codes to rewrite in the neural networks of the mind are the ones written about hierarchy.

I’d say most of this lifetime I thought of God as the big man in the sky. He was something greater, obviously, than a human and he was the one who judged my sins.

Oh Catholic school….

It was so deeply ingrained in us everyday that there was little to no question otherwise. We just took it all in like sponges and it was our truth.

We feared him and prayed to him and worshiped him. We did our best to make sure we would make it into heaven by confessing our sins to the Monsignor, who acted as the middle man to the big man.

So to reverse the truck out of such a dynamic it takes a lot of looking at. 

I’ve noticed that as I slowly began to embrace my humanity I was able to really see more clearly that not only is that whole Catholic story a complete lie, obviously, but I could finally know not only how crucially important and necessary my humanity is but also that thinking it is less than God in any way was the biggest lie of all.

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In Kashmir Shaivism tradition, a branch of tantric hinduism, the baseline understanding is that in Reality there exists a trinity; Shiva, Shakti, and Nara which is consciousness, energy and humanity (consciousness in form).

It holds the view that the world and everything in it is Shakti, the original sound of creation.

Essentially that this is already the Kingdom, we just need to clean our windows to see it. Meaning we need to go beyond what we think we know to see what’s already here.

And that the body is the very instrument that consciousness needs in order to know itself in this way.

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A few years ago I had a spontaneous 2 day experience in cosmic consciousness. It was the sensation of complete bliss, no matter what I was doing or not doing it just pervaded ceaselessly. 

It was a taste of what the subject/object collapse feels like. It was a direct experience of my true nature, of awareness itself without the borders of separation. 

Soul and consciousness as one.

This is our natural state and it’s replicated when we reach meditative samadhi states of absorption.

When we let the breath take us into our central channel the bliss takes over.

The perspective of separation dissolves. 

And hierarchy goes too because how can one be greater than the other when there is no other?

This all makes more tangible sense, in the day to day, as parts that no longer serve dissolve. This occurs as we allow forgiveness for distorted perspectives and soften to our humanity.

The reality is that when you are open to the flow of life through that complete embrace of your energy you start to feel all of creation in your body, as your body.

The pain of separation fades and you feel the wholeness that you already are.

This is a sensation beyond time and space and yet it completely changes your experience here.

That feeling of wholeness is what makes us happy for no reason. There is nothing here that can add or subtract from that innate happiness because we don't find that feeling in anything “out there”. 

When you have the experience of all of creation within you, as you, you feel boundary-less and you know there is nothing more natural than that.

All is equal, all is God and the Kingdom gets clearer as we rewrite old stories that have no foundation in your new experience expression of Reality. 

Compression and Release

When it’s time for something new our consciousness takes big leaps that are experienced beyond time and space and within it.

These leaps move a perceived center out from its position in order to experience reality in a new way, in a more real way.

Beyond time and space these leaps into a new potential show you in sensation what it feels like to reorient around a new center that is not mired down by identity.

But how do we experience these leaps in a more lasting tangible way in our bodies and with a mind that can understand?

Creative tension is the sensation of energy and consciousness reuniting. It creates a new nervous system that can handle knowing oneself as the Absolute rather than as a singular human moving through time and space. A nervous system that does not look outside and see “other” but that senses everything within it.

When the mind comes along to realize what is illusion and what is real it understands that the tension that is felt during these transitions is creation itself.

It is what creation of new energy feels like in the body.

It is how the macro commands the micro. It is the sensation of the dissolution of barriers. It is a communication telling you what needs to be seen through the eyes of awareness. It is the very indication that you are acting not from a person who thinks she is separate but from the very space that is dissolving separation all together.

It is the sensation of alchemy and it feels like fire in the body.

From this space we can and do command the energy to come home. The soul delivers the energy to consciousness and you command that energy to merge back with the one and only thing it is actually seeking.

You know that merging is what’s needed. So you look at what is presenting and you inquiry into it. You lean into it.

You command it in this way, from that space of awareness. This is how perceived centers flee their comfortable and dug in positions.

Awareness notices what’s going on. It sees the perception and so the energy must move. It can no longer remain operating in the same way because it’s been discovered.

This is how quantum changes occur. They are reality shattering at times and can feel like the very earth below your feet gave way. The old patterns are exposed.

But the real you knows that it is the tension before the expansion. It is what will bring about a grander view, an integrated experience of the collapse between borders of self.

What the mind once thought was real begins to change and the more your true will commands energy to return home the capacity for your nervous system to be able to handle the Absolute increases and the more your mind can comprehend.

Life lives itself through you freely and integrated.

Creative tension gets us there. It is the very thing that indicates that we are in a state of becoming. That we are not stagnant and slowly decaying as we hold onto positions but that we are in motion, moving out and in like the conscious breath.

It ensures that the illusion does not hold you stagnant in any one position so that we are always self generating our own infinite energy.

*Inspired by the Frank Lloyd Wright home commission called Falling Water, which I visited last week near Pittsburgh, PA. A stunning example of integration, compression and release.